Please pray for me, that That I can fell well this christmas, so I can be with my family and not be anxious and sad.

You see I have leave with depression and anxiety for so long and always around christmas It use to be very bad. I can't handled it. I always feel like a bad person when I can't be in the mood of Joy, like I fail to give especially my children, good memories of christmas. They are young adoults know, but It doesn't matter, the feelings are always the same, that I feeling ashamed that Im sad and anxious.

I have tried for so many years, to show me selfcompasion and Tried in so many ways to give me self love, but it's hard to go in.

Please help me god