I will be praying for you. This is an especially hard time of year. I'm lonely and depressed, too.
If you dont already have one, look for a good church, with a caring community. Look into social services, for support groups, volunteer at food banks, but whatever you do, get OUTSIDE of your own head. It can be dark in there!😥
Keep your faith. Things can change quickly. I will pray for you to find "family " soon.
I love you. God loves you.

Stay strong!! :( I hope find happiness and peace soon. :)