I'm trying my best keeping up with my baby's needs. I feel like a failure since he's been sick on and off since last Sept. Now I fell behind when we both were sick in December. But now I find marks that look like bites and the caregiver in my building says it can be fleas. He started having them after we came from this parents group where I thought it was an allergy but drs say it should clear up. And just tonight I found a flea on my sock 😭 it's just so devastating as I'm already worried about my upkeep and having to sanitize everything since he has thrush in his mouth. It just never ends I can't sleep thinking about it all I just want a happy clean organized home is that so much to ask for. I was almost settled in from moving in last month now I feel like I have to take ten steps back and pack everything up. I'm sad because I try so hard. I can barely get anything done since baby needs my comfort at night and my attention all day he wants to help me too so I get distracted by distracting him and it really never ends. Pls lord rid our home from these pesky creatures and let it be the only one flea. What's even worse is it could be from my sister or my mom since they have cats and even more sad that it's hard to keep up with their health. A dying old cat princess, one kitty was fixed after having a life threatening surgery now the other one is in heat. My sister kitty is having issues too with his bowl. They all sleep all day like cats seriously saddening I pray they find the energy and motivation to be in good health themselves. So many ppl dying my heart aches thinking about it. I think too much and should trust in God. I take every action as a sign as to what should be happening in life. Like if we have a flea problem with no pets or baby being sick am I beng a bad parent not paying enough attention to my boy. Idk I do what I can but feel like I can always do more. Thanks for reading and praying with me. This only one of the things meddling in my mind. My baby's father is killing himself slowly I pray the plan his fam want to set get in motion and he goes back home to clean his life up so he can be the father my son needs. He's all methd up with poor health as well. Scabs on his face living in a parking lot pls touch him with your love God and show him he is loved and to love himself. Thank you