I'm actually struggling with cutting off the bondage of sin. I had been playing it cool not to think so much of it as a big deal. I can't help it but go back being addicted to pornography. It usually happens when I feel unoccupied and doing nothing at all. I hate it and it makes me feel sick every after I do such a thing behind everyone's knowing and of course to God. Worse, I have been handling a small group of people doing bible study and they see me as someone who servers God. I feel so guilty about it but I just cant help it. Sometimes, I wonder if I REALLY believe in Him or just a sort of a knowledge about Him but never truly have the faith at all. I am asking for your help and prayers to totally detach me from this guilt; that I may truly repent and never do it again and again. My heart longs for Him and that's all I know but my body fails all the time.