Some ppl made magic against me, some are jealous of me, some cursed me. Because of that my life is stuck, there's no progress, I'm not happy, I'm alone when it comes to human companies (no husband, no family, no friends), no job/work, no money, I'm angry bc of the unjustice, I can't sleep at night, specially between midnight and 5 am. Barelly during the day. Idk how to get or to make deep connections, real friends anymore, I trust no one. I feel not only socially isolated. I feel emotionally far from ppl I know (guess they crossed my limits when it comes to disappointing me or backstabbing me. Right now I only believe in the Trinity, which is the only person I trust and hv faith. Atm I could trust more on strangers n ppl that are not my blood tbh. Other than that there is in me sadness and a slightly will of not existing. I also hv mercy of other ppl around the globe, that can't avoid or stop their own suffering. I cry for them, I pray for them, I feel I'm a strong person, but I've been going ups n downs on my emotions. My family pretty much screwed with my head. My mind is confused bc of so much pressure and other stuff from them all life. Controlling, manipulating, psychologic abuse. Everything mostly on psychologic emotional field. I still feel tormented. In any opportunity they hv to practice again, they are up to. Depresses me that I can't help ppl or myself. Pray for me? I need help. GOD, JESUS, HOLY SPIRIT blesses you all. All glory to the Most High. Amen.