Lord I need help. I am beating myself up mentally. I started to get a little resentful at work. Its like I am attacked from three or four directions. I am trying to be like you and have compassion and I am.meeting resistance. Little fiery darts keep coming at me. Does this mean I am doing something right? Instead of praise for doing good I come home to find i am being criticisized for pointless things. I am letting it bother me I don't know how not to. Is this a attack just perceived by my mind, or is it real? I don't understand. One of the things that bother me is a patient brought me a list ( a detailed list) of things he needs. I found that discouraging, instead of gratitude, I am met with demands. Like I know I treat you that way God, but I am not you. I want to be like you but idk its all so confusing. Am I wrong for not wanting to provide the things on that list? There is a nurse who is so grouchy and gossips and she is bitter. And I don't want to be like that. I want to be happy joyous and free. I'm so confused and pressed in. One day is glorious and marvelous and the next ends in cursing and resentment. I need help lord please free me. I thank you for the good and the bad. Lord give me wisdom and strength and peace and freedom to love please. Thank you