I see a lot more within myself that I had denied, seeing the truth has been heavy. It hurts to know who I have been, the way I have been living and handling life. I am full of regret and I am fighting for strength to accept and change my ways. Fighting myself is the biggest challenge as I can't walk away from myself. It's so heavy, although, I have been praying to change the things that I can and to accept what I cannot change. I believe that this is the true and where it will matter. I need the courage and strength to keep going. At least to make it through the day I have and hope for a better tomorrow. I ask for prayers. Please.