Lord Jesus my mind is heavy at this present moment. I'm not living right. What I've learned so far in this year that anything can happen. This year has humbled Majority of people in the world let alone you did it yourself. Almost everybody's in the same boat so it would be silly if certain people look down on others. It seems like things might be speeding up to your return. Lord I'm going to be honest and say I'm not ready. Lord Jesus please help me to change my ways. I want to get around certain people of good influence and please forgive me for my sins. Please cleanse the filth that is in me and please have mercy on my soul.