I understand what you mean about praying for so long and it seems like nothing is happening, I always try to imagine how much worse it would be if I or nobody was praying, I know that dont seem very uplifting, I just have been through so much that well intentioned people try to give advice but dont really understand what you have been through so I am not trying to come and say all will turn out exactly as you are praying I am just reaching out to let you know I totally understand the part about praying for 20 years and then some, sometimes it helps to talk to a friend or just vent to someone also and dont stop praying, I hope this did not upset you in anyway, I dont usually respond on here but I just got on to read my email and saw your post, I have no idea who or where you are and I dont know your situation but just wanted to let you know someone cares and Keep your head up as much as possible in these crazy Covid times.