3 hours ago I asked for a prayer about my uncle passing away and just got help with my faith.. I get home to find out my boyfriend has Covid. We all live together my mom grandmother sisters & dad.. my moms doctor has told her before with her asthma being so bad that if she got it she would probably die.. we can’t work for 14 days and that means literally on Christmas Day it will be 14 days since his positive test.. that doesn’t include all of us.. Our landlord is already calling and asking for rent and we’re we’re already struggling. He has so much money he doesn’t need it.. he knows my mother is sick she is having radiation on a brain tumor. but Now we literally could lose everything. We haven’t even turned our heat on this year because we just didn’t have the money so we’re just making do with what we have. My cousins babies can not get this virus. She is already sick she has wolf hirsschhorn syndrome. I am lost for words. I literally can’t take anymore. I feel like I’m losing everything I’m seeking god I just need help I need answers. Maybe god just is trying to show me to lean a little more towards my faith but I really don’t know how much I can handle until I break .. I’m already there I know I’m broken. This year is the worst one yet.. I feel like I’m dying in a selfish world that nobody understands me!! Where is he I need him most right now!!!!!!