I slipped up and went back to my old ways. I shouldn't have. I felt luke there was something I could get my way. It didn't work it didn't satisfy. Now have fear that I'm in a hole . I have caused myself extra struggle. I feel like God was telling me not to be afraid to fall. That where was something to be learned or done pride to be worked through. Idk if that's how I justified my relapse or if it was a necessary part of my journey. I did learn alot on this relapse but I'm not sure if I am ready to stay sober again. could use some prayer please and thanks