The Lord convicts He does not condemn. Repent, thank the Holy Spirit for loving you to a point of correction, whatever yours may be. I thank you for your transparency.
*Hebrews 3:8-Harden not your hearts, as in the provocation, in the day of temptation in the wilderness:
*Exodus 1 And God spoke all these words: 2 “I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery. 3 You shall have no other gods before Me
THEN: Jesus said to her, "Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering." Mark 5:34.

I understand because I have the same problem. I will pray for you !