Please pray for me. I have lost all hope and I'm really really really tempted to end my life. I have felt this way for a long time and this is so much more than I can bear. I want to believe it will be ok but I've had my hopes crushed too many times to believe it. I'm not ok. I've never been ok. I don't know what I need or how to ask for it. I don't know how to describe my problem in a way people will understand. I'm feeling God's hatred when I'm always going through this torment alone. I cry out for peace yet He denies me. I don't know why God expects me to be like Him and be able to handle this but I'm not and I can't handle it. I wish I was never born I'm sick of hurting please pray God has mercy on me and gives me a reason to hope or someway to know it will be ok. I feel like all my efforts to stay here have been in vain.