I don't think I can last another year waiting on God. I'm trying really really hard to not cut my life short and I'm hoping against all hope God intervene because my life depends on whether or not He cares enough to make His presence known. I can't stand this mental torment anymore. This is more than I can handle and in 1 Corinthians 10:13, it says we won't be given more than we can handle. But, this is more than I can handle and I'm not handling it much longer to wait for a god who refuses to love me despite my efforts.