Please pray for me that God would deliver me from the spirit of death. I have really strong urges to take my life and I'm finding them harder to resist. I have struggled with depression the past two decades and despite everything, it's only gotten worse. I pray to God daily and throughout the day, I say scriptures over myself, I praise and worship God, I try and do other things to help my mental health but I still feel rejected and unloved and unwanted. I don't want to be here anymore because of this constant pain I can't get away from. I have to keep it to myself because no one will understand it and I've been judged before in the past because of it so that is why I keep it to myself. Please pray for me. I am not ok. I feel like God has rejected and abandoned me. If I could just get a little help from God or this would let up just a bit, I could hold on. How I feel right now though, I don't know if I will make it through the week. I'm starting to crave death more than I fear hell and God's nowhere to be found. I never felt His love despite that being my deepest desire and He's got me believing I never will.