Heavenly Father I am not in a good spot in my life I thought I was gonna have a happy day yesterday but no I come home to my mom on pills and drinking idk what she is going through probably stressing because she is doing all of this for me but she doesn’t have to stress out at all because that makes me sad that she is stressed I said some things I wish I never said my mom is not talking to me me that is 17 years old and going through so much it makes me want to cry so much me going through so many things like prom in a couple of weeks and so many things I don’t know what to feel I just want to cry over this I feel like a bad son to my family I feel like the bad guy I am doing this I wish I can just relax but I can’t because it is so hard I wish I never had to go through any of this I wish I could just put in in your hands In the next couple of days idk what to feel or next week or the week after that but I’ll see what happens through it I’ll put it in your hands but it’s hard for me ti go through all of this I’ll see what happens.