TODAY WAS A VERY HARD DAY....I FEEL SOO LOST...WHAT WILL I DO WITH MY LIFE.....SEEMS THAT ALL I TOUCH OR DO ENDS IN A DARK PLACE FOR ME....CHOICES...WHY ARE THEY SO COMPLICATED ...IN A WORLD WHERE YOU CAN BE ANYTHING ,BEING YOURSELF IS SO HARD FOR ME....MY LIFE IS FULL OF REGRETS AND DISAPPOINTMENTS..TO ME AND TO ALL THE PEOPLE I KNOW....I AM TRYING TO START OVER AGAIN...BUT IT SEEMS...I CANNOT ....I AM AFRAID OF PEOPLE..THEY HURT ME SO DEEPLY....WHY?...WHY DOESN'T GOOD THINGS HAPPEN TO ME...HOW CAN I FOCUS ON THE GOOD IF EVERY TIME A GOOD THING HAPPENS A VERY DEVASTATING THING HAPPENS RIGHT AFTER?.....I SOMETIMES JUST WANT TO FALL ASLEEP AND NOT COME BACK...BUT..MY TWO CHILDREN WOULD BE SOO LOST WITHOUT ME..I AM THE ONLY ONE THEY HAVE TO TALK TO...BUT..I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THIS....I AM FALLING APART DAY BY DAY....OH..HOW I PRAY FOR SOME SIGN..SOMETHING TO BRING AN END TO THIS DARKNESS I FEEL.