Thankyou to anyone who will pray for me. I'm really suffering dealing with this alone. I don't feel like it will ever get better. I'm holding on but barely. I wish I was normal and not so socially retarded. I have no life skills because I'm too stupid to pick up on things other people understand without being told. I can't bear the weight of this pain. It's taking all my energy to mask this. I really really really need a miracle. If there was ever a time I needed God, now is the time. I'm spent. I ran out of ways to deal with this and it's only a matter of time unless God helps me.