Over the past year and a half, I have experienced psychological trauma and abuse that I never thought was possible (from a person I loved (and still love) with all my heart). Numerous times, it's felt like my spirit has been completely broken and shattered. I prayed for/over this relationship, and prayed (and continue to pray) for the person. To this day I don't understand why. Why I was treated so poorly (and ultimately discarded) in the relationship, and why it had to happen the way it did. I don't want to feel this way any longer. I want to surrender; let go and release the pain, hurt, guilt, confusion & sadness that I can't seem to get over. I pray to be healed. I pray to change/grow emotionally, mentally and spiritually. I pray that in time I will have joy, peace, and "life" back. That God will take me from the valley to the mountain.