Sharon

Prayer Request

I am asking for prayer to be a better person. Like many, I focus mostly on myself and I feel great regret and shame for that aspect of my character. It disgusts me so much. As I've gotten older, I have become very isolated and tired all the time. I feed about 15 homeless cats where I live. It's the only thing that gives me joy. I also feel that it is a blessing from Jesus to love and care for them. I wish I only felt great joy about going to feed them. But sadly sometimes it feels burdensome. I turned 60 this year, and I have not taken good care of myself. Therefore everything is a physical struggle. I spend a lot of time self ridiculing myself for being so selfish and self-centered. Sometimes I feel like a fraud because my feelings aren't as caring and genuine as I want them to be. I feel like I am so fake. I do feed them everyday and my heart feels joy knowing they have a happy belly for a while. I just wish I felt less ugly feelings about myself when I'm tired and think of it as a burden rather than a blessing.