I am in dire financial straits and feel completely overwhelmed. While I am so grateful for the help I get from my family, and a dear friend, I am frustrated by the symptoms of depression that bring me down each day. I have so many things to do, and gifts to give, but I feel paralyzed with fear. I love someone I know in my heart, and with God's guidance, is the one for me, and I for him, but we are estranged. We live some distance from one another but lately even our friendship is at a standstill. I have known him since I was 11 yrs. old, but hadn't seen him for over thirty years when he found me again. It felt like a miracle. I have been widowed for 19 years, and I felt so happy to just be his friend. I miss him so much and do not understand why things are so sad. Thank you, as I struggle each day, ever grateful for God's love, and your sweet prayers.