please pray for my family that they will be able to continue to make the payments on our house and that we will not lose it, we need to be here at least two more years then the kids will have graduated. I also need prayers that my sickness will not continue to spiral out of control and that I will stop pulling my family down with me. Starting to feel that they are much better off with out me maybe I need to leave, seriously thinking that this would be the best idea.