I just need prayer right now because I feel like just giving it up!! I am struggling with my mind right now. On one side I feel like I just need to end my life because I am not happy anymore. I have went back to college for 2 years kept a 4.0 GPA, which was hard for me because I am not a young girl anymore, I am almost 47. I took medical classes and coding classes. I have been unemployed from a temp job since October 2013 and I have applied to so many positions that I have lost count. Over 100 I would expect. I had one interview that I thought went very well, got to meet the team that I would have been working with if I got the position. Went back for a 2nd interview with MGR and then I shadowed for almost 3 hrs. I thought the job was mine in my heart. I hadn't heard anything so I called them 3 weeks later and I got a call the next day saying the position had been filled. My heart just dropped! I have continued to apply, but hear nothing. No one wants me as a employee. I just cry all the time, don't feel good, don't want to dress, just want to be left alone in my bedroom. Please pray with me and for me. I am near the end of my rope.