I've tried to maintain or grasp some substance of my faith and my relationship with God but with the passing of my mother it's more difficult for me to keep holding on and the inner struggle I now have with my faith. The enemy is hitting my finances, my mind, my body and I'm in a sense just tired and need God to deliver me so I can once again have that joy I once had in serving HIM and not listen to the enemy telling me my time here is done.