I am in need of prayers, for I feel as if I am losing faith in the plan the Lord has for me. I have a very rare form of cancer called Langerhan's Cell Hystiocytosis. It is rare in the fact that it is a cross of a cancer ( neo-plasm cancer) and an auto immune disease. The LCH has drastically affected my life in so many ways and continues to worsen. I have been to numerous doctors who have no answers and some of them had never even heard of it, and I had to educate them. I am losing faith and have drawn inward and in doing that, I am cheating my 5 kids from having the mother they deserve and the mother I use to be. But I no longer have any energy, and hardly any ambition sometimes. Other days, I have all the drive in the world, but the body cannot carry out the plan. This disease has affected my lungs very badly. I can hardly walk across a room without being out of breath. And it is reeking havoc on my body in other ways. I am in constant pain, mainly in my back where they have found many problems thru MRI images. But the pain is all thru my body on other days, which I have had many doctors "say" I have Fibromyalgia, but never really testing for it. I am losing faith in doctors and have pulled away . I was going to The U of M for my care and due to insurance problems, have had problems getting back there. The old me would not let that stop me, but I am not fighting anymore because I just don't have the strength and faith I need. Lord, I need your help. I am not asking for a miracle cure. I am only asking to help me renew my strength to fight and faith to carry on and continue to try to find help in a doctor who has the knowledge to help me thru this. I only want to be able to be strong for my children and be able to drive them to school, or take them to the park or fishing. I understand I will always have limitations, and I can live with that. I just can't live with the fact that I feel as if I have given up.That is not what I want to teach my children. Please, Lord, help me find the power to get up and get moving on my health care. No more laying down and not fighting. Please give me the strength and courage to fight for my health and the will power to do the everyday things for my children. The things that most parents either take for granted or complain about having to do. Please give me another chance to do for my kids like I used to. Pick up after them, drive them around, teach them things,SHOW THEM LIFE!!!! Thank you and in Jesus' name...AMEN!!!