i am feeling so dilapidated and down till I didn't know what is happiness and joy. At this point of time, all i really wants is just to give up on everything. All I ever want in my life now is the Lord's joy, confidence, wisdom and love. I really lost it. I lost God's glorious. I just want my ownself back... The old me with full of confidence, discipline and hardworking. Its all gone now.... I am feeling so empty in my heart and life. I really dont see the purpose of living in this world. its just so meaningless.

i hope to have a roof on my own and lead a normal peaceful happy life... i really miss being a mom to my 4 wonderful children....