all the years of pain and heart ache ive had to endure i finally got what ive been praying for, for it all to just go away and leave me alone but i think im getting numb to pain i need to cry am depressed but cant i dont know what im doing with my life anymore nothing that i do is for anything i have limmited family left by my side meaning my father and step mom im getting tired of breathing i need guidance for god to tell me what it is im supposed to be doing.