We all have asked those questions. I don't have all the answers and I wouldn't be bold enough to tell you why God didn't seem to hear you or where he was. My thoughts are, just maybe he has let your brother be the instrument to you finding HIM...it brought you here. I urge you to find the chaplin at the hospital and seek out the answers to your questions and find out how you can know him more intimately. I am praying for Tyler, your mother and of course you.