Widowhood is a big crack in the foundation formally known as your life. I was widowed due to tragedy and all I knew was shock, pain, confusion. Are some of these familiar with you?
So, pray I will for the blessing of peace and strength. Healing of pain for you.
It's been 16 years and my life is wonderful; Thanks be to God! I pray the same for you.
All will be well and all matter of things will be well.