I feel selfish asking for people to pray for me when there is so many terrible things happening and many more people far worse off in this world than I. But I have no choice but to ask anyway.
I have come to the end of my rope, I am tired of fighting what appears to be an never ending battle. This has happened through nobodies fault but my own and the poor decisions that I have made in my life.....Over that past 5 + years I have tried to be optimistic and faithful. I have tried to hide my feelings of being inadequate and of being a loser. I am wanting to move forward. Prior to the 5 years I have kept making the same mistakes over and over again....saying that I would not make them again...but no....I continued on this path of self destruction (financially, physically and emotionally). I was forced to move from my home due to foreclosure....but I have tried to rebuild slowly. I have always been a giving, caring and compassionate person. I have always taken care of everyone else's needs before mine, but when I did start to take care of my own it was destructive....bad move.
What I am asking is for God to have mercy on me. shine some light on me and to help me get out of this situation. God knows just what I need...I Pray to the Lord! AMEN!

Just got word late last night that a very dear friend's 85 year old mother has gone into the hospital with a severe aortic bleed and her condition is very grave. The sad thing is he is in Ireland on business and is having trouble getting a flight home. I am asking all of you to say a prayer for him, his mother and that he can make it home on time. ♥