My prayers are with you. I do know how it feels to be in pain sometimes so debilitating that you get depressed. I fought and prayed my way through and I still have to continue to pray, but I know that God is a healer and a mind regulator and there is nothing too hard for HIM. I pray for your healing and for you to receive the job that you are looking for. Cast all of your cares upon the Lord. God Bless and keep you