Im struggleing with Life period. not sure I even want to be here anymore I really messed my life up I need Prayer , God so much right now Im recently divorced I have not seen my daughter in 4 years and recently seen a pic of her and shes so beautiful looks just like me and i have a son i see on weekends he to looks just like me and him and his sister could be twins , I feel like a failure im not financialy stable , dont have insurance Im medically diagnosed Bipolar ,I feel I have been diagnosed wrong I have ruined my body with tattoos , I feel im not a good father altho I love them more then anything my kids are gettting older im really insecure on my tatttoos I cant even hide them in pictures, I dont provide for them as i would like to , My family in home is a struggle there is so much hatred in my family, I was a drunk for 15 years Im 8 months clean now but the whole in my heart is getting bigger, I want to be a Father my kids are proud of. Im in the deepest depression i ever been in Im not sure how much more i can take its like my mind is eraseing on me. I need help in practicly everyway but im still rideing on my faith but its weakening I want to be normal again I want my kids back I want a loveing family I want to turn this around so bad and do good but i feel im so far gone I need a sign , direction Miracle cause this is bad really bad and i cant live like this anymore. God Im on my knees begging you Please Please help me the person i have made over the years this person is not me I see the real me but i cant find the motivation to become him Lord help me im in desperate need I made many mistakes sinned alot I Need you Love You Amen
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