Good Morning Friends! I come to you all because I have so much going on that I as one person are trying to get through and I feel that by speaking to out to others and the power of prayer and through GOD all as one are more powerful than ever! My father whom I have spoke of several times in past requests has been in and out of the hospital for the past 3months. The man is only 50 yrs old YOUNG! He found out that he has Lupus, he has already had 17 back surgeries and still needs 3 more but no Dr will touch him. Bless his heart he lives with this pain and I can't even begin to imagine how he must feel laying there thinking & watching TV. Unfortunately my dad taught me alot of things in life.. responsibility, how to pay bills at 12yrs old, drive at 12yrs old, and to be strong. I have to say I have remained strong through this whole thing in front of them. I keep it in my mind that I have to keep myself together because if I don't then we will all be ill. I stand strong for my mother and father but behind closed doors it hits. It's so sad, heartbreaking and to try to hide that is very hard. I myself have medical issues to begin with I need back surgery but will not do so because of what I've seen my dad go through and still going through, I stress very very bad which leads to a high level of anxiety. I have dealt with anxiety since I was 14 but as I get older the worse it becomes because the more I think and the more I worry. I try and really do try hard not to and listen to what others say about don't worry about something you have no control over but I can't accomplish that.. I pray everyday and sometimes wonder why me, why do I have to be this way. I have other health problems that I can't seem to get anyone to take me seriously or always talk about what needs to be done but never does anything about it. I have actually got to the point now that I don't even want to go to the hospital when my chest starts hurting, tingling in my lips, pain in arms, back and on and on due to the fact I'm not taken seriously and ALWAYS told YOUR TOO YOUNG! All I want is answers so atleast I know what is going on instead of it happening and having no idea what the problem is and causing me to stress and then anxiety take over. So with all of that being said I just ask that if you have time that all of your thoughts & prayers will be greatly appreciated. For GOD is our only hope.. Love & GOD Bless You All! Thank you for reading & listening..
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