Shattered and Alone.

Please pray for me. I am lost and my heart is shattered! My husband of almost 10 years passed away 4/17. He had an aneurysm., after a fall, on 4/8. He was only 53. I am 51. I do not know how to do this life without him. He was my soulmate. He treated me like a queen. We did everything together. I love him with all my heart. I don’t know why God gave me this gift and then took it from me. I am so heart broken. I don’t feel Gods presence. I feel alone. I prayed for a miracle. Bill was known and loved by many people. In the hospital I was told 3 things and I obeyed. Be Still. Wait. Jesus Take the Wheel. I prayed. I had multiple churches and preachers, family, friends, and strangers praying for My Bill to wake up. Sadly, our prayers were answered with a no. Bills miracle would have brought so many people to God. Now we are all just lost. This has hurt a multitude of people. Preachers don’t have answers. I keep being told that God has a plan , but what plan can possibly be better than My Bill being here for everyone. So many lives could have been turned to God over him waking up. Now people that believed are lost, In shock, dumbfounded, confused, and even worried. Everything we thought to be true, has been turned upside down and inside out, Yes, I am fretting. I am lost. I am hurt. I am confused. I am angry. I am alone. I miss My husband. God is no longer speaking to me. I need to know why and what was more important than bringing my husband back to me. We share 5 kids and 12 grand kids. I stayed at his hospital and slept in a chair for 9 days. People say our marriage was a fairytale. Except, we didn’t get our happily ever after.