I've been through something similar years ago. God is right there with you. Don't give the enemy any attention. When you feel him coming you ask the Holy Spirit to help you and bring you comfort and peace. I want you to do one thing for me once a day. Find someplace quiet and just talk to Jesus. Out loud. No one's around. lol It helped me so much to talk to Him. I'll be praying for you. In Jesus' name, amen.