I would like you to pray for me I been going through a lot and not sure where my life is headed and need some guidance and will power to except the way thing are and see positive in the darkness I deal with depression and sucidial thoughts and some times it gets the best of me I have a history that is hard to let go of and forgive myself amd others and I dewell on some things and haven't been able to let go and it takes away from my here and now and I'm wanting to grow past those things in my life and feel whole I never known my father amd my mother was killed in a car wreck when I was young and I sometimes feel not complete like im not as good As others and I have two kids and trying to be a good dad but haven't done so well and I just want to do the best I can for them and others in my life but I feel broken or incomplete like something is missing and I personally cant do anything about my situation cause I dont know what I really need or im lacking and I live alone and it all gets to me and overwhelms me and I just want to give up on everything I also dont have regular visits with my son cause of bad decisions I made in my past and that gets to me cause my past consequences are still there and I can't get past it cause I am powerless over it all and Im at the mercey of other humans they have control over my life more then I do and I just want to give up and die but I have kids and others that need me still in there life's and I feel hopeless cause it seems like im in a never-ending battle that I constantly lose at and thing never get better or if they do I self sabotage my progress with more bad decisions and bad behavior's and I get selfish dont care about others thoughts and feeling and push people that care about me away. Im a mess sorry for rambling on and thank you for your prayers and may God bless you and who ever needs his blessing's
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