I am so worried. I was not accepted to Grad school, like I wanted to be. I now own a place near it. I have a job( in another city), but when my parents sell there business I will be unemployed. I have a boyfriend that approves of my family, and that my family approves of, but no one wants to hear what I think. I know he loves me, but its not right. Something is not right. It makes me depressed, because I know that I have been given a second chance at life, because I am a brain tumor survivor, but hear I am in the middle of unhappiness. What am I doing with my life? How am I showing gratitude for my second chance? At this point, I am sitting around waiting. God, I am thankful that I get to see my biological father in Hawaii for a month, and that I don't have to worry about the mortgage on my place. So With all these blessings you shower on me, what can I do? How can I find my happiness? ..and is there someone right for me, out there? I see romantic movies, and I want to believe its real, but no one has ever been that nice or good to me. No one of romantic interest. How do I resolve this feeling of uselessness and incompleteness? Please pray fro me if you are reading this. My prayers might sound like whining, but I struggle with feeling incomplete.