You are reaching out to the Lord. God hears your prayers. I have been through so much in 26 years of marriage. My husband drinks also. It can be so hard beyond what we feel we can withstand. God is telling me right now for you surrender everything to him. He means everything. Let go and let him heal you from the inside out💕Never forget God is always with us. He just needs you to reach out. I will be praying for you both🤗