I have always believed in God. However, I have spent a lifetime of trying to control my own life and my own situations in my own way and when I wanted. Well, it's taken 41 yrs to realize that I just cannot do it without Him. Ive hurt too many people, failed at everything, and lost myself and almost everthing that I cared about. I have asked God's forgiveness. I have asked Him to come into my heart and my life and take control. I am working on building an intimate relationship with Him. I want to please Him, live for Him, love Him. I pray for His guidance, grace,mercy,strength, wisdom and patience. I am asking for your prayers as I continue on this spiritual journey so that I will have the strength to stand firm and not fall back into a life of slavery to the sins to which I have always been so vulnerable.