i am on disability, it seems the last 4 years my body has been fighting against itself and the doctors cant figure out why..?? i am 44 yrs old, will be 45 in November, many say im toooo young for allll this to be happening to me but i was in a car accident when i was 17 yrs old and cld not walk for a short time.. now that im older its taken a HUGE toll on my life.. i hate taking alll of these medications.. and recently i had Gods healing power come over me.. i felt a tingling in my feet which rose up my body and felt as if was floating, it felt as if my spirit separated from my physical body and i was out of pain for what seemed like minutes but it could have been seconds, i dont know why God decided to show me His healing power and His Grace but He did.. i no longer have to have laser treatments to walk, God healed my back that day.. i KNOW he did!

now i have another herniation though, i dont want surgery, been holding out for a looong time not to have it.. also at the same time, i find out i have Colonic Inertia.. yep! they want to remove allll but 1 foot of my colon.. one extreme to the other!

if anyone has any experience with this and maybe some advice that would help me in facing these upcoming decisions.. i HAVE been praying and being patient waiting on Gods answer - however - with this serious of a health issue im beginning to question myself, is this God putting my mind at ease or is it just my optimistic to a fault mind-block i have at times, or is it satan knowing how miserable i will be when i cant go to dinner with friends without possibly wearing depends.. vacationing will be difficult like on a cruise ship in a swimsuit..

im praying for discernment.. i know no one can make the decision but myself and God.. Please pray for me that i will know the difference.. thank you alllll and God Bless You!!