I want to receive Jesus into my heart to change it and become the person he wants me to be. However, I don't feel that I want to pray. I feel very indifferent about talking to God. I don't have a problem sinning since I feel like enjoying it sometimes. I need some prayers from all of you because I feel lost and out of control. I need God to come and heal me from the evil thoughts and life I am living now. Please Pray for me!

I was in an informal relationship and we broke up because I felt like I don't love her. now, I feel I am unsure of the decision I took and I might have truly loved her. I don't know what I should do ... I am very puzzled and confused and need prayers from you so that God could help me feel, think and decide on what I should do next :(
Thank you :) Michael