My whole life I have been faithful to God, and he has gotten me through some really horrible stuff. I always figured that he was planning something for me, but lately I'm starting to think he doesn't care. During the last Five years I've been lied to, cheated on, bullied, lost my job, had my car repossessed, was betrayed by a friend I lived with who stole 3,500 and kicked me out of the house and said that when he was young he was homeless so I should be too. My Grandmother Died, that same year my Mother then dies, then my friend Jenny who was two years younger than me of cancer, then I found out one of my best friends was moving to Wisconsin so we planned to meet up the Friday before he left, he died of a Heart attack at forty that Monday, I never got to say goodbye. I recently went back to former job because I heard someone would get fired if I didn't. I was bullied and harassed again. I had a huge opportunity to get the job of a lifetime and work with a celebrity I was a huge fan of(I know her cousin). I had finally thought my prayers were answered and things would go my way I had even heard she liked me. But then someone else came along and that door slammed shut in my face. She literally forgot she knew me. So while I know this was long and I feel selfish for asking please pray for me. I have lost my loved ones, my "friends" have abandoned me I fear I am going to lose the full time position I worked hard to get (after only ten days the person who is supposed to be training me is already giving me snide remarks) and will be right back at square one so please Pray that God shows me something anything that he cares. Something to show that he has not abandoned me. Because my faith in him is all but gone. I do not know what I did to deserve this punishment and frankly I can't handle this any more. Thank you.