pray that i will be here to see my children through their lives at least till they're grown and raised and are able to take care of themselves and one another,alive and grounded here on earth with them at their sides every step of the way for each of them-sean, elijah, malachi, gabriel, and mary jane.and please give us the strength to get through these trying times and the strenth everyday to carry-on and everyday make their lives better as mom, their mom, what i was born to do and the only thing i want in this world to be. i also thank you for the gift of each of our lives. you are a truly awesome God and even through all of my imperfections and mistakes i make and i ask you your forgivness for all of my sins and i want you to know im not even close to ready to let go of that or any of the gifts in my life, including my own and beg you to let my family remain together, happy, healthy, and alive with each other even tho i have made many mistakes.i do value my life and the lives of my children , my family and even with my faults beg you to forgive me for my sins and want you to know im not ready to give up on my life so please dont take any of our lives away from each other.thank you again for every thing you've given and done for me and continue