I need prayer to be able to go on each day since my oldest daughters death, I need God's strength to keep guiding me and holding me up cause sometimes my heart hurts so bad I feel as if I'm going to die, my life is not the same without her and I miss her so very much and the pain of losing her is so great that sometimes I just want to stay in bed and never get out but I know I have to go on I have two other children and 5 grandchildren and I know there most be a reason I'm still here and my beautiful daughter isn't, All I can do is take it one day at a time and I'm trying so hard to show people I'm strong and dealing with this when deep down it's killing me, no parent is suppose to lose a child they should be the first to go my daughter won't be able to watch her one yr old son, two yr old son and 4 yr old daughter grow up, go to school, have friends, enjoy life, graduate, get married have kids none of the joys of life she loved her kids more than her own life and it just isn't fair. I know God must have needed her more up in Heaven and she was so unhappy and in pain down here, now she is with my mom, her favorite grandma she cherished and she was never the same after she lost her grandma. so please, please pray for me I fell so lost and alone even though I know that God is always with me, I need some relieve from this pain.
Janice