I have no one to turn to. My friends have disappeared and my family isn't there. I have hit the brick wall. It is my faith that sustains me. I am no longer asking God for strength in my fight against my terminal disease and keeping me here with my family. Instead I am telling God that I am ready if I am worthy enough to spend eternity with him.

Please pray that I feel God 's presence and that I can feel his loving presence and embrace. He's all that I have left.