I will share with you one real truth marriage as you know already is for shared love and respect. For me, I have been down this road 3 other times the first step is to love yourself enough to realize this is broken and take the steps to leave as life is to be lived not to be destroyed. I'm remarried to a wonderful lady I can say life is worth it to enjoy happiness. I truly gave my heart and soul and have learned many lessons the hard way. I wear my heart on my sleeve as they say thou I have gained so much joys and memories along the way. I wish and pray for you make the choice for your life. Best wishes.

Many years ago I went through extreme depression, I was married with 4 children had a wonderful life. My only problem was my father-in-law was a preacher who had control over my wife, behind my back they were having secret conversations throughout our 8-year marriage. My wife who was a sweet naive and gentle person was swayed by her father and was not able to make a stand. I on the other had told him to his face she is my wife now and she has the right to make her own choices so back off.... I left for work one morning like normal that evening I returned home to find my entire life turned upside down, a few months back her parents and my wife and newborn son flew back to an uncle who had passed to settle his affairs on there return my wife came to me one night and made an outrageous comment to me sawing you need to change your ways about my father..... So as I entered my home every item in my home had been removed, cloths beds like we had moved out or been robbed...... I could hear my heart beating. Needless to say, I was in shock as time passed i was served with papers over the next 4 years my world fell into a dark place I was unable to operate as normal. It has taken several years to walk away from this, my family was gone I was given supervised over 3 years 30 hours to be exact each time they dragged me to court trying to take away the simple pleasure of my family then lying to my young children behind my back. I finally moved away as they were stripping me of my right to have my children in my life. My wife made a choice to lie in court, she would have cut her arm off before telling a lie, later I found she took her life as she was using heroin. The sad thing she wrote a letter to my 4 children telling them the wrong she had done and couldn't face the wrong she had done to me. I have been married several times seeking to find my true love. It happened as I was healing from colon cancer we met thru the internet she lived 5000 miles from me two years later we met in person and have been married for 7 wonderful years. As I look back on all of this life is a journey and depression is placed in our life for a reason to make a serious choice to better our lives. I had an awesome mental health counselor that showed me the way to step out of my own mental prison my mind was unable at the time to understand. as it was a protection mode our brains go to self protect from a meltdown or overload.... In truth, the advice I was given was so simple to a normal person, I had fallen into a manhole and i was walking in a circle with no door to walk out of. The way out was simple, just find a ladder and climb out. The next step was to avoid manholes. just walk around them. It's not easy to walk away from a dream, a joy, or someone we love. It has taken family, friends and a few prescriptions early on but life is for the living, we can't change people but we can change who we are and love ourselves. I truly hope this message helps many to never give up on your dreams.