I think you need to surround yourself with positive people and you must talk about it (like you are doing) so others can help you stay accountable. My ex-husband had a lot of addictions (so many different ones) and it ruined our marriage. His life is really sad now. It takes courage, faith, will-power, and FORCING yourself to make the right decision. Avoid temptation... whatever it is, if you are tempted by it, then stay away! YOU CAN DO THIS <3