Sometimes in life we do things we are so ashamed of. We become this person that you know isn't you. Your life can change in the blink of an eye. I have done some horrible things in my life that I am absolutely ashamed of. I try and forgive myself, but some things, I cannot forgive myself on and so I just pray to GOD to forgive me for my sins. The past 6 years of my life have been the hardest I have ever had. Went from bad to worst. I climbed out of the darkness just to be thrown back into the darkness again. I have cried so many tears I could replenish the lands in a drought. I ask for prayers because my heart is heavy. I miss my family and no words could express the emptiness I feel there. Family... it's funny.. my family is funny. My family is FULL of wrong-doers, yet, being judgmental is a high characteristic. I know what wrong each and every one of them has done. I have kept their secrets, yet, I am the one who is banished for my actions. Years have gone by. Years. Only one has stuck by me and for him I am so so grateful. I love my little brother with all my heart. He is my life-saver. In 2009, I committed suicide. I couldn't bare all the guilt and hurt I felt in my heart. I felt like I let my kids down and they were better off without me. I say, 'committed suicide' because I was successful. I died for 7 minutes. My last thought was, what have I done! I don't want to die! I want to live. I feel it's only because I called out to GOD, that he brought me back to life. Thank you GOD! I have the best person in my life right now. He has made me stronger little by little. I feel I have come back to life because of him. We have our moments, but he is my rock. I love him more and more each passing day. I pray, that the hard times we are experiencing will pass. I pray that our home remains ours. I pray our kids get the chance to grow up where we are and know that this is their home and that there will be no more moving from place to place. I pray that the good LORD blesses us in our work. To be acknowledged and rewarded for the good jobs we are doing. We need this boost financially to better provide for our kids and keep our finances on track. I pray all our worries to be eased by the grace of GOD. I pray the worst to be behind us. That our sins that we have done, be forgiven and forgotten. I pray the heavy heart to be lifted and filled with nothing but joy and love. I pray this not only for me and for my family, but I pray this for each and every person reading this. I pray GOD blesses everyone who believes.