You cannot be very far away from God as much as a fish cannot be very far away from water and still having a conversation like you are now. Kidding! :D Change the way you think, change your opinion that you are far away from God. No, you are not far from God, don't let yourself be deceived. You are in God, God is in you. He loves you. He's the one placing the urge in your heart to seek Him and he's not going to make it hard for you to find him.

Go on, seek Him. have moments of intimacy beyond your ministry, beyond your responsibility. Just come.