Asking prayers for myself for I have been suffering many years with anxiety and depression... One day I am up and Happy, and the next, I am down and don't want to be around anyone.. I find it so hard to sleep at night with my thoughts racing 100 miles per hour.. awake every hour or two just looking at the clock and then trying to get back to sleep only to have trouble again because my thoughts take over.. therefore I am pretty fatigue most the time and don't wanna do anything and its taking its toll on my marriage and my family and myself.. I have lost all desires to do things I used to love doing as a wife and a mother.. Suicide crosses my mind at least 3 times a week and I hate that.. I am so blessed and have every reason to live and love life ... I need help ... there have been certain things happen in the past 5 or 6 years of my life that I am not proud of and keep locked inside of me and it is torturing my mind not to talk about it.. I know the Greatest Counselor is God, and when I am all alone, I will sit and talk to him outloud about them.. but I am still being tortured inside every day and I want it to stop.. I want me back and I'm so afraid that I am scarred for life over certain things I have allowed myself to do and allowed my eyes to see even when I knew they were so wrong... Medication is not helping me.. I almost feel it is making me worse, but now my body is so addicted to the medication, the withdrawls are excruciating to go through even not having my medicine for just one day.. I want my Life back .. I used to be outgoing and funny, full of Love and compassion, I loved to sing, and cook, and go places.. now it is all gone.. the only thing I find myself wanting to do is sleep or cry most the time.. Please pray for me.. I miss me and so does my husband and my 9 year old little girl<3 Thank You all<3
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